Time's come to move on, once again. Not happy about it, moving's a pain, supposedly one of life's traumas. In fact, I've never liked doing it, so God must be taking me through the lesson about it, again: "LEARN how to do this" and "STOP fighting me!!" I figure that's pretty much it. There's a great blog that just got started a short few months ago, authored by a FB friend who's also a current student at my prep school alma mater, called "Brownsville To Concord" [http://brownsville2concord.com/]. This writer is bringing great inspiration to me, and probably is responsible for sparking me to put this one up. She has just been writing about grades, and the students there receive "warning grades" mid-term, to let them exert some control over making improvements if warranted. Me, I remember not doing too great the first couple of years, no way was I used to so much focused living, on academics, sports, and on interacting with so many smart, dynamic people for months -- where I grew up, things were a lot more idyllic than intense -- and without virtually ANY tv. What a wonder that I got swept up in all that activity, and in retrospect, despite quite a bit of fear and misery, I kind of forgot about the old, much more easygoing life at home I'd been so used to. 
But now, I have to move on, move out, and I'm almost blithely facing having to find a new living place with very sparse resources. What's remarkable is the feeling of .... almost confidence that the next outcomes and the next phase will be acceptable, and eventually sensible. I can't know that, of course, and some things ahead may be mighty unpleasant, but still, it feels like I've paid some sort of "dues" at this juncture, where dread about the unknown, and unease concerning the "normal" uncertainties of what's coming just don't resonate in me as they once did powerfully. The things that are happening now make some kind of sense, as much as I'd like them to have a different character. Perhaps the central lesson is about surrender. Well, I've seen THAT before, I know something useful about that, such as looking for a "right attitude." I can do that.